Stay with me..

Life is all over the place-as will this blog be..
I am really into the song "Stay with Me" by Sam Smith.. love love love it. I could seriously listen to it over and over. And I just might do that from time to time! My husband says its just depressing music- but to each is own right?
I've been in constant prayer that my husband gets hired on at this temporary job-the process has been approved, so I'm still praying that it continues and he is hired on-it would definitely not only be an answered prayer, but a great stress reliever for our family-financially and emotionally.
I want to start doing some work to our home, make some changes so we can enjoy it more. I would like to paint the kitchen cabinets, paint the wainscoting in the dining room (have I mentioned how much I hate that stuff-its the cheap peel and stick on kind and it sucks-just thought you should know). Avery isn't able to enjoy our home, besides being in her own bedroom b/c we don't have carpet in the living area, & sense we have dogs I don't want her getting all nasty-which is totally unfair to her b/c she is walking and really wants to explore & I feel as though I am holding her back because of our pets. Don't get me wrong, I love our dogs, but I want Avery to go wherever she pleases and not to be so paranoid about it.

Did I mention that I have a 1 year old (13 months to be exact) that is walking and talking (she may only say "daddy" but still)- I can not get over how big she is getting and so fast! Its crazy. She has 2 teeth-and 2 more coming in. Teething has been a slow process but I've heard the longer it takes for them to come in, the better her teeth will be in the long run- I sure hope that's right. I will have to get her birthday pictures posted-she loved having everyone over, but did NOT like the cake, which is fine by me. I made a cake a few weeks ago and she ate it though, plain of course, no icing.. haha! Momma's girl for sure! She loves to read her books, even if they are upside down, she doesn't mind haha! She is beginning to do better about sleeping her bed at night- but always ends up in the bed with me sometime in the night. She is still a good shopper, loves to go out and wave at everybody. I'm pleasantly surprised and blessed I know, bc she is such an easy going kid-she was like that as an infant and it continues-so far so good!

My babe is about to be 1. Yep, reality is about to smack me in the face, but I'm just going to ignore it. I was looking through "old" pictures of her and it just makes me think back to when she was so little and couldn't even hold her head up by herself. (makes me want another baby real bad-- but I still have my baby, and my husband says not soooo soon) But honey-- I already have a name picked out! haha!
Avery is definitely growing up on me, crawling 90 miles an hour, standing up on everything-- about to start walking, I just know it. Saying dadada. Eating and drinking everything in site. I miss her being little little, but I'm excited to watch her grow and explore.
Being a mom is the most stressful and rewarding job I have ever had- lots of ups and downs, smiles and tears, I wouldn't trade it for anything else. I wish it would all slow down a bit, but that's life.. it just keeps on going, whether you can keep up or not.

5 Months.. good grief!

5 Months.. are you kidding me?? seems like 5 weeks instead.
Age: see above.. 5 months..
Weight: have not had a current weigh in for this month, but I'm gonna guess about 14 pounds, I think she has finally doubled her birth weight!
Height: same as the weight, no current height check but i bet she is at least up an inch from last month
Hair/Eye color: Blondie! Sometimes it really looks red, but its mostly just blonde. Eyes are becoming much lighter blue
Likes: loves to laugh at the dogs, and bathtime of course! still enjoys riding in the car, and is happy to just go with the flow.
Dislikes: there isn't much that can upset this girl, unless she's super hungry and you aren't getting the bottle fast enough.. or if the Imagination movers are on disney--she doesn't like that!
Memorable Moments/New: she is really looking you right in the eye now which is really sweet (she would always look in your general direction) but she is now looking you straight in the eyes! We layed her down in the floor and let Boscoe walk around and she just laughed until she couldn't laugh anymore--he didn't even touch her.. it was pretty cute! Starting to really slobber alot, I'll be curious to see if some teeth start showing up soon.

Motherhood.

Being a working mom is tough. I have to admit, I have a very blessed life. I am able to have someone come into my home and take of my little one while I am working. That does not make me feel any less guilty by any means. I wish I could be at home with her each & every day, going on outings, and just watching her every move. I know I will miss alot of milestones/firsts... but I know that to provide for her financially I have to work.
Avery is such an easy going girl, which does make things pretty easy. But don't get me wrong, we all have our moments. Tiredness, stress, irritability- all these things are normal, & we just work through it. She is a wonderful night sleeper, but let me be honest, she does sleep in the bed with us. I know what your thinking, we are gonna regret this, but ya know, its what works for us at this moment, so thats why we do it. She enjoys it and so do we.. and one day we will get our bed back, even if that means when she's 4 years old. oh well!
We don't really have any sort of schedule. We feed when she's hungry, which is usually every 3-4 hours. But if she acts hungry after 2 1/2, by all means I will be glad to fix another bottle, no big deal. She sleeps when she gets tired- some days she takes a few hour long naps, other days she may only take one or two 15 minute naps. We do tummy time until she's had enough of that, read books, swing, sit outside when the weather is nice, and watch DisneyJr or the Baby Channel (yes, i let her watch tv..) I don't always give her a bath every day, but sometimes I do. I normally shoot for every other evening, she enjoys it so much and just loves to splash splash splash!
Life has its moments.. But as a mother, I'm learning that my life is now my child. Yes, I do remember that i have a husband too, and dogs. But life has certainly changed, and I am certainly blessed more than I know.

4 Months..

I can't hardly believe that we are already here..
Age: 4 Months (wow!!)
Weight: 12 lbs 6 1/2 ounces. I'm so excited! She is getting soo big, I love to see her grow and change each and every day.
Height: 24inches (always growing in length for sure) Tall and skinny girl (dr said she is in the 25th percentile) but he said she is just going right along as she has since the day she was born and looks really healthy
Hair/Eye color: Blondie! Daddy says her eyes are looking gray, but really they are just getting a lighter blue color
Likes: loves watching the Baby Channel, and anything on Disney Jr, she loves to talk talk talk to the tv as well. Loves bath time still, and playing "earthquake" on the bed..haha! she will just laugh and laugh.
Dislikes: she's still an easy going girl, there isn't much that makes her mad, except the hiccups..that will aggravate her- and still doesn't enjoy being burped!
Memorable Moments: Still hearing that giggle is the best thing! She is really starting to grunt alot- Daddy always thinks she is pooping, but nope! just making new noises, and starting to squeal sometimes too. She is really starting to keep an eye on the dogs now and watches them very intently!

The love I have for my child..

There is nothing in this world that I love more than my baby. No matter how much she cries, whines, throws a fit, is terribly restless, no matter what the circumstance may be, I still love her. I cannot become ill towards her, or treat her any different. No matter how tired I am, or how much I feel like I need some time to myself, she is my number one priority, and I come after that.She is just a baby, she can't help it, she can't tell me whats wrong..that my responsibility and job to figure it out! It hurts me and aggravates me to see people post all over facebook how their baby just won't sleep enough, or cries too much, poops to much, drools too much or whatever. Yes, we all complain about things.. but the baby should be the absolute LAST thing that causes strife in your life. What an absolute BLESSING and miracle of life we have been given.. and we choose to complain about it??
Often times, I do feel overwhelmed, but things can Wait! Who cares if there is 40 loads of laundry or if your husband is ready for dinner... HE can WAIT! (or fix dinner himself..haha) I'll sleep later, even it that means when they are 10 years old.. I'll eventually catch up on the sleep. When they get older, I will miss their innocent crying and whining. I will miss the feeling of holding them and rocking them for hours on end, just comforting them. I won't be able to do all this for long. So instead of complaining about it nonstop--enjoy it. Love them, don't complain about them.What if you don't have another baby or aren't able to? YOu will be kicking yourself for all the complaining you did. Just love them.. please. (and yes, I'm fully aware that you can love AND complain.) But whats the point, don't waste that time complaining on Facebook when you can be praising, playing, and loving your baby.
Thats all my ranting for today.. if you don't like it.. Oh well! I guess you can just complain about it! ha!

3 Months

3 Months old already..Holy cow! Baby's looks are changing everyday, and talk about growing! Good Grief!
Age: 3 Months
Weight: haven't had her weighed since her 2 month check up, but its gotta be up to 10-11 lbs for sure!!
Height: 22 inches (always growing in length for sure) again, haven't been measured, but it seems like every day she is getting longer and longer!
Hair/Eye color: hair is still blonde/dirty blonde. Some people say it has a little reddish tint, so a little strawberry blonde as well. Eyes are beginning to lighten up from the dark blue, but are still blue for sure ( i hope they stay! )
Likes: loves to watch her mobile, she will just grin and grin (its just too bad you can't set that thing up on a timer, I just have to keep cranking it up over and over, ha!) loves bath time, and really splashing it up!!
Dislikes: she does not like it when she gets fed by daddy.. he likes to burp often and she gets a little irritated. But other than that she's a go with the flow kinda gal
Memorable Moments: Laughing (a real giggle) started this month! I work and work to get her to laugh and she finally did it! only like 3 times so far, but gee whiz its the cutest thing ever! She has previously rolled over but now is doing it like crazy.. LOVES tummy time, which is new as well! At first she struggled so much because her head is so big, haha, but now she will play for a long time on her belly. We also got a bumbo chair, and I just love it!!