Something must be in the water... There are so many people getting pregnant. I'm not so much jealous, but more worried about when it's going to happen for us. I know that the time will come when it's supposed to...when God has planned it to happen...but what if Gods plan for us is not to have kids..I know that I need to be patient and trust Him, it's just eating away at me, ya know?
I am only human..I have wants, I have expectations...when truly I need to think of the desire that God has for my life, for our life, and the life of a child if we were to receive one..
I suppose I'm just anxious, and I know, I'm only 23..there is plenty of time for little ones, and at heart I'm still considered a little one. In my heart I'm just terrified that maybe I won't be able to have children...don't ask why I feel that way..I just do, and I hope and pray that I'm mistaken...
Just holding my niece, Reiya today..how much love I know I could and want to give a child just pulls on my heartstrings..whatever the plans are, I'm ready..I just have to remember there is a plan for David and I...I just need to wait and be patient..very patient...very very...lol
It will probably happen when you are least expecting it. I know you will make a great mom. Hang in there.
ReplyDeletemy number one thing i wanted to do in life was become a momma!
ReplyDeleteand the thought of not being able to ....especially after having a miscarriage..scared me to the bottom of my heart..down to my bones...
i didn't know what i would do if i could not have kids...i mean i work in preschool..i love kids!!
pray about it..let God know that you are giving this anxious feeling over to him and enjoy being a newlywed right now...
God knows when your ready to have a little one.....and he has way more patience than i do..sometimes we just get ahead of ourselves!!