Anxiety/Tiredness..

I need a boost of energy! I need a boost of confidence!
I started my new job last Friday--so I've got 3 days in. I have experienced more anxiety this last month than I ever have before, in my life! Not b/c of the new job, but knowing that I'm having to start over and learn something totally different. Not knowing how to perform certain tasks is scary and causes me stress. I am making sure to just ask questions when I'm uncertain, but at the same time I'm trying to catch everything the first time through--which I know is not always possible. I'm praying more and more each and everyday--and honestly, every time I pray- I feel a sense of comfort come over me, its the best feeling in the world. But sometimes, I forget to just stop and take a deep breath and pray about it. I need to work on that, for sure!
I'm also feeling more tired and grumpy lately (at home anyways)..its a combination of not sleeping well at night, or not getting to bed early enough, or not getting up early enough and I'm running around in a hurry. I'm still working out about 4 or 5 days a week, which makes me tired in the morning-but I know its good for me, so I MUST keep going.
I know I can do this--its going to be a positive step for me. I can do this! I can do this!

I'm finally 25..

25.. who would have thought. It seems like a big milestone some days.. and then again, some days I feel the same as I did when i was 22, 23, 24.. They all seem to be running together.
My last day at the bank was on my birthday. I started my new job the next day. I seriously had mixed emotions. I was really ready for a change--I thought about it, prayed about it, suffered from some severe anxiety about it. But, I told my husband if they offered me the job, I was going to take it. I wasn't so nervous on Friday- but now the closer Monday gets, the anxiety is building back up. I must be tough, and just go with it..can't be that bad right?
I had a good birthday though, David sent me flowers and made me dinner (which was so good) and i even got a workout in!
Even though my hours for work have changed, I have still got to make it a priority to go to the gym.. i have to!
I've still been baking and cooking up a storm, snickerdoodles, biscuits, peanut butter blossoms, homemade pancakes! YUM! I also made apple chunk muffins and banana bread. I somehow always forget to take a picture tho--geez. I will post the few that I have though. for you to enjoy--i apologize ahead of time (i'm no photographer) and they taste better than they look!

I've got it!

It just came to mind today when I was talking to a co-worker.. They shouldn't call it FaceBook, they should call it CookBook.. so, I was talking about what my blog name should be..I need something witty, and thats it. Cookbook, not Facebook. So I will try it out, see if I like it.
Yesterday I made Banana Bread.. success! I even tried it. Tonight I made Chunky Apple Muffins. Yum! The first thing out of the husbands mouth was, I don't like apples. But guess what, he ate two..right in a row, uh..must be pretty good right? I think so!
I love love love my new KitchenAid Mixer--i never thought of myself as a good baker--but man, this totally makes a huge difference and I just enjoy it so much!
I'm no Martha Stewart, but I'm trying her recipes, and some recipes from a cookbook my mother-in-law gave me. I just feel so happy when I'm cooking/baking/experimenting..and then getting to see my little taste tester enjoy what I made, feels even better!

Happy Anniversary.

Sept 5, 2011 was David and I's 2nd wedding anniversary. We got married on a Labor Day weekend, and every year we forget about this until its time to make a plan for what we want to do.. But oh well, we always have a nice time.
This year... the weekend went like this--Friday night after work we went to La Fiesta in Fort Smith and ate dinner (david never takes me to eat mexican when I want too--so i was surprised he wanted to go).. Saturday we got up and decided to go shopping for each other. He headed to town, and then a few minutes later I headed out too.. I stopped for a quick visit with my grandparents first--but that turned in to 3 hours, gotta love em! I just enjoy sitting at their kitchen table swapping stories and such--I even got a new cookbook. Then I headed to Academy, Old Navy, and Shoe Carnival. I went hoping to get David a new pair of shoes, but no one had the right size and it was hard to get any employee to help.. that drives me crazy!!
So I headed to the mall in hopes of finding the shoes. No such luck, whatya know.. So I figured I would run into the Mens Dillards to see if they were having any sales on Polo apparel. I found some short sleeve polos (with the little pony) --david will NOT wear anything with the big pony.. Must be the little pony haha!! I picked out 2 shirts they were on clearance for $34.75, in the middle of checking out a lady said are these the price on the sticker? The guy working says "no, its 50% of that.. so $18 per shirt.. WOW!! i had to get another one.. thats crazy cheap-my husband has expensive taste so I had to get them. That night we had reservations at the Red Barn Steakhouse--it took about 10 minutes for anyone to even say hello to us, and then the food was not good. It wasn't horrid, but I can make a better steak than that.. we were disappointed to say the least. But we had a nice evening.
--David said he didn't get me anything b/c he couldn't find any good deals.. I thought and said no big deal, i don't really need anything. Sunday came, we went to Poteau and I got some groceries, nothing too exciting. At this point, I was coping with the fact that he really didn't get me anything--no big deal right? Monday morning he comes in and wakes me up and tells me I should go make a cake with my new mixer--i was like whatever--you didn't get me anything. I get up and peak around the corner, nothing on the kitchen table--good one david.. So, he ran to the store and I got up went to the bathroom, walked in the kitchen to get some juice.. and what do ya know... there it is. MY KITCHEN AID MIXER!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH!!! In Pistachio, the color I wanted and everything. At this point, I'm screaming and the dogs are barking wondering what the heck is going on. And I have to wait for David to get back--wow. BEST PRESENT EVER!!!!! Seriously, it was like Christmas, and I couldn't thank him enough!! I LOVE IT!! I have made 2 cakes, 2 batches of peanut butter cookies, and I have a pound cake in the oven as I type.. :) I love it!!

--and i think David liked his shirts too! haha.