Follow Thru Syndrome

I think I have follow thru syndrome...First let me explain what I mean by this.. there may be a better term to use, but this is what I came up with. I am super good at making lists of things to do, lists of things I need from the grocery store, lists of accomplishments I wish to achieve.. but following thru with these lists is my weak spot.. I follow the to-do's for maybe a week, maybe two if I'm lucky..but often after that they dissolve. They are still lingering around and I look at them from time to time..but nothing more than that..
I made a list of household chores--example: Monday:sweep, dishes, wash a load of laundry. Tuesday: sweep, dust, dry laundry and put away. Wednesday: sweep, clean bathroom, dishes. Thursday:sweep, swiffer, and mop, laundry, vacuumm..Friday: dishes, sweep..
You get the point. So I dd this for a week i think--go me.. Then, I got the bright idea I would make a list of every thing I did once I got home..Feed dogs, sweep, unload and load dishwasher, put some clothes away, organized the bathroom cabinet, go to walmart, bring the trashcans up to the house, let the dogs in for a while, start a load of laundry, make a grocery list..on and on and on..(hopefully, making me feel as though I accomplished something..anything) but that only lasted one day.. ONE day. wow...I can NOT follow thru.
THis does not mean that if I don't have a list the laundry or the dishes don't get done--b/c they do..eventually. when i'm out of underwear, I know its time to do some laundry--lol I try to not be that bad, but sometimes you just can't help it. Especially when your husband doesnt do ANY household chores--except taking out the trash, and that usually means, tying up the bag so I can't stuff anything else in there.. I usually end up throwing it out the front door b/c i'm sick of waiting on him to do it..lol But then again, he works hard for us--he's out in the BLAZING heat to help pay the bills..so if I have to throw the trash out the front door--and thats all I have to complain about, i suppose, well i know I'm pretty well off.. ( i do love that guy...so i can look past it) But anyways, i think maybe i don't have trouble following thru..maybe its just because I have Lazy syndrome..thats what my husband would call it.. I'll grow out of it, little by little, maybe, maybe not.who knows.
Theres no medical term for my problem..so thats a plus in itself.haha!

A day in my/our life...

So this weekend was good... Friday after work we had to run to my dads bc his ac unit upstairs wasn't working, and then we stopped by moms on the way home to check on hers too.. Ok so I didn't do anything except supervise, David did it all of course! I did carry some tools at one point! Saturday morning I got up and read the newspaper outside, around 8am..it was windy and overcast and just nice to be outside! Then me and mom went to town..kohls, Tuesday morning, we were supposed to go to the dollar tree..but we forgot I guess..then we went at lunch at joes pizza and pasta...WOW..sooo good! Then hit up big lots, where I got dog food for 50 cents a can..which is a great deal! And some laundry det for $2.50! Then we went to office depot, I was in search of a small binder that I could put all my coupons in..yes I know, the major couponers use a big binder..but it's just me and David and I don't want to buy a bunch of crap we will never ever use ya know? I did find a business card holder, which holds 100 cards.. 100 coupons for me that is! After that..we stopped at Wally world and mom picked up some steaks and we decided we would grill at my house..we headed home after that, it was HOT! I got the house cleaned up and the steaks marinated..mom and her boyfriend came over and so did grandpa..we had steak, potatoes in the oven, bread, and corn on the cob..I know, starchy!! Lol after dinner, we decided to go swimming..so nice!
Sunday..I missed church, I guess sat really took it out of me..I ran to michaels and target..got some more good deals..got David a razor for$2.54 and some dog treats for $1 and also some bathroom cleaner for $1.48 (which I really need to go use lol). I made lunch when I got back and then decided to go swimming again..I'm hoping maybe I'll get a lil tan one day! Other than that..I think it wraps up my weekend..boring I know!

Maybe Next time

Life doesn't always bring out the best things for us. It puts us into situations that we would rather avoid and sometimes pushes us into a tight spot that we cant seem to get away from. I know I was too quick to get excited--but what a blessing it was!
I prayed constantly that if it was meant to happen, then it would. If it wasn't God's will, i prayed for healing, peace, and patience; not only for myself but especially for David. David & I talked about starting a family and I was ecstatic. I knew that I wanted to be married for over a year before we even thought about trying. and david wanted to wait til i was 25--so we thought this was a good fit.
Unfortunately, this wasn't our time & I miscarried on Mothers Day weekend. They took tons of pictures with the ultrasound and everywhere they looked, it was empty. But on the upside, I know that we can and will try again when the time is right. This is a difficult situation in life that I wish David and I could have skipped over--but I know there's a reason for everything and I have to trust that this wasn't in God's timing.
Although, I keep asking myself, what could I have done differently? Is it me? Am I capable of carrying a child? I wish I knew the answers, but in fact, I do not. But I'm being optimistic--David is holding me strong, and we can do this.

p.s. If you did not know what was going on with this situation, I apologize.. this is not something that I could just come out and tell the world immediately. ITs not something that I have shared with everyone--some people are just now finding out. When we went to the doctors office--I was kinda at a loss--and I think i just told the people that I had to tell. so i extend my apologies to you now.

Obviously

When will I ever be good enough? It's frustrating..try try try, and u just end up exactly where you began.
That's life though I suppose. I'm sure I'll keep pushing on..day in and day out.what the heck right?

I need to work on my self esteem, I need to work on my sarcasm..I wish I could wake up and just be positive..be positive ALL day long.what a difference that would be right? I honestly think that if I were less negative and more positive..I would feel better, feel healthier, feel happier..the list would go on and on...

Obviously its something I need to work on..

Grateful....

There are so many things that we are grateful for.. so why not share a few?

Home.. I am grateful that the Lord has blessed me with such a wonderful home, a roof over my head, shelter, a place to run to..our house is still new to us, but we are slowly making it our "home"..i think this will take a while, but we are working on it daily..

Family.. I am so grateful for my family..whether or not we get along all the time or not, whether we are near or far, whether we talk on a daily basis or only once a month.. I am thankful for the family members i have, and so thankful for the ones that can no longer be here on earth with us. They have shaped me into the person I am, they have raised me, and they have loved me.

Work.. yeh yeh, i know what your thinking..your grateful for your job?? yeh right.. but really, I'm grateful that I have a job, I have worked since I was 16 and i have to make a life for myself, and whether I like my job or not, i gotta do it.. I'm glad that I get up every morning and do it over and over again..

Dogs.. ha! I'm thankful for the little babies I have here at home, they are always so excited to see me..who wouldn't love that right? They will always love you no matter what.

Car/Transportation.. if I didn't have a car, where would i be? I suppose i would figure it out, but i'm grateful that i have a job (see above) and that I can have this kind of luxury, when i know there are millions of ppl out there that don't..

These are just a few things, in no particular order...just whats on my mind lately..when i pray at night, I always tell God how thankful I am for the things he has blessed me with. Where I would be without Him, I have no idea..

Holy Cow

A couple weeks back David called me late on a friday night while I was at work, and asked if I wanted to go out and eat at The Red Barn..i said sure, he made reservations, and I was excited! We had never been to the red barn, i heard it was really good and a great spot for a romantic dinner--which we don't have often..
Anyways, we ordered our food and were just talking and having a good time..David had recently started up a facebook account and got in touch with some friends from Georgia..he said he felt like it was time to grow up and that all of his friends had grown up and were starting families and that he felt as though he was still trying to live in the past... (holding on to the past for dear life, is more like it..haha)
But the point of all of this..he said he was ready to let them swim...LOL What i mean by this is, he said he was ready to have kids.. I wanted to make sure that he wasn't just doing this because everyone else was--was he just feeling pressured to have kids because he was behind? I needed to be sure this was HIS decision... At this point, at the restaurant, I was almost embarrassed i think, i was in so much shock i didn't know what to do or say..
But we have talked and I know that he is ready, but now I'm wondering if I am ready.. I think I'm just nervous now--am I ready ? I'm freaking out.. I know we have plenty of time, and I'm reminding myself of that.. But i think once we get pregnant, I'll have 9 months to get ready for everything right? lol I don't want to plan it though, I just want it to happen as it should, Gods plan is wayyyy better than our plan.. its not just way better..it is better! you get the point..
So I'm praying that if it should happen for us, it will... maybe i need to buy some baby books..haha.. (not really, not yet anyways)

July 2011

I have set up a goal and a compromise...to lose 25-30 pounds by July.. This is a goal that I know I can reach and a healthy amount of weight to lose for my body. The compromise you ask? Not only will I look and feel better, but if I reach my goal....David has promised to stop his bad habits as well! I'm so excited I can't hardly wait to start.
It's so very true that I have some HORRIBLE habits..I've had them all my life, so getting rid of them is easier said than done. I love starchy food, ya know..potatoes, bread, Mac and cheese, spaghetti, pizza...should I keep going? I love cokes, sweet tea, lots of orange juice..so yeh it's gonna be hard, I'm going to want to quit..but I've got to get into shape and get healthy! I know I've started this a hundred times, but this is for real! I'm gonna get out there and do it..if it's raining, that's no excuse to not exercise.I can either work out in the house or run on the treadmill at work..
I would really like a food regimen to stick to, and David told me to buy a book..but there are so many out there I wouldn't know which one to pick..but I'm going to just take some tips from online and do what I know is right and we will see what happens..so I'll keep my blog updated every so often when I do my weigh ins... Which I plan on weighing in once a week to keep up my my progress.. Ready set here I go!